Where to begin? I have a newfound dislike for the male species, I find it hard to confide in anyone except girls these days, and I can't even allow the guy who is willing to drive 5 hours to come see me because it's not something I'm ready for. Now isn't that a hoot. I wish I knew what I wanted. I use to have everything so perfectly or at least semi-perfectly laid out and all I can figure is it wasn't God's plan for me yet if ever. I realy wish I could confide in someone on earth and let my barrier down. God's awesome to talk to, don't get me wrong. I just wish I had an earthly pal. lol. You know almost every single one of my friend's has left me since me and Turner broke up? I find it quite amusing since we go to church with half of them. They act like they feel sorry for me and I loathe that. The people I use to confide in got cocky and got in a band and now I don't even know them anymore. They are 2 completely different people. And Turner, Turner likes to rub it in my face. Sometimes I think even the other one does too. I just need to leave Albertville, get as far away from here as I can. I use to have a reason to stay. Now that reason has turned me away several times and reprimanded me pubicly to the point where I'm not comfortable there. God give me some direction and guide my feet. I have too many trust issues right now to let anyone else into my heart except you. Grrr...I wish I could figure stuff out.