Okay. Well it's been a while hasn't it? I've been extremely busy here lately with church stuff and work and "what not" So let's see. Where to start. I have decided I'm not going to date anyone. Why? Because for one thing...I won't date anyone I can't see myself marrying. Strange? Maybe, but all dating leads to is marraige and for the record I don't need heartbreak number 2 hanging around my door anytime soon. Ya know I had an episode last night. I pulled a Monica. I was so mad by the end of the night but more mad at myself for allowing myself to get that way. I know I have people who love me and I know that I have alot of people who care about me. Sometimes it just gets so hard to see thru all the stuff that's happened and I feel like I just get pushed to the backburner. It's like all my ideas seem to just not be important enough to listen to and I'm always content to just sit there and watch it happen. What else can I do? Lemme tell ya something. A hug can be the best feeling in the world. I never thought it could be but it is. I had a cryfest with my roomate the other night. I told her how I felt about alot of things and she ended up blubberin right along side me. lol. It was definitely a "girly" moment or whatever ya wanna call it. Anywho I was going thru a time with my church, my ex, and some things that were just pushin me farther and farther from God. Travis Creasy comes up to me at Zaxby's, hugs my neck and says "It's good to see you back." It was the first time in a long time I felt good about myself and I think maybe sometimes that's all it takes. I mean I feel good about myself anyway but sometimes I just need a boost or some kind of encouragement and that was really a picker upper. Turner, lol, hugged me the other night and told me he would pray for me. Wonderful guy he is. Sometimes I just wanna choke him but I love him all the same and I know God put him in my life for a reason. Anywho, guys the point is this. THE WORLD NEEDS A HUG SOMETIMES! So go out and hug someone today and make their day better. I'm kidding. But do go out and make someone smile today. Give them encouragement b/c sometimes that's all they need to life their spirits. Anywho, I'm out like a deaf kid in musical chairs. My laundry awaits me.
SMILE. I love ya and God does too.
XOXO,
Monica

P.S. The Dukes are back!!! :).