So I have this heart right? This heart that I'm not using. So what do you do when you can't stop looking at him? What can you do when the one person that's CONSTANTLY on your mind is a whole hour or more away? It's the kind of thing that makes you wish you could have stayed put long enough JUST LONG ENOUGH to have met him and been around to live happily ever after. It's the kind of thing that makes you rethink life and where you want to locate, the kind of thing that has you questioning..."Could I have kids with this man?" and the kind of thoughts that have you thinking..."I love when he holds me like that." You know what? I'm silly. I'm just being silly. Because said boy has already stated that he doesn't and could never love me so this is useless. Mutual friends say give it time he's afraid to fall in love and I believe them. But will it be me? Or some other lucky girl who gets to kiss him goodnight and sleep in the bed next to him WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH ME!!!??? My STOMACH is doing summer saults and I haven't felt like this but for one person and I'm REALLY sure that's more than a little odd for me. I turn everyone away. I refuse to let anyone in. I find something wrong with everything and everyone. Maybe that's what he's doing with me. Picking me apart to find out that I'm not the one he needs. BLAH! This LOVE thing has me all turned around. Why can't these things just go MY way for once? lol.